What can I say? Grandpa died a few weeks ago. I wish you were here so we could talk about it, but you knew it before I did even though I was right in another room in the house when he died. I fell like I am doing much better than I was. I just feel deep sorrow and grief now. I am still being comforted by the Holy Spirit. I still hear from God. The day grandpa died, after I got in my car to drive back to where I was staying, the chorus of a song came on and it was God speaking to me. The chorus sang "This is where the healing begins". It was an emotional day for me and I had grief from both deaths mixed together and impossible to untangle.
Grandpa's funeral was wonderful and sad all together. I got really sad because it was so difficult to separate the two funerals less than two months apart and your death still shocks me sometimes.
You would have loved Grandpa's funeral, especially the military one since you loved being a military wife. I took a video of his military honors funeral. It was moving.
The other day I was at the grocery store and saw a woman talking on her cell phone. I almost began to cry right there in the grocery store because I wished I could just call you up like that, like I used to.
How can an introvert like me find a friend like you again? I pray that God will show me a friend.
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