Give Grandma a Hug for Me

Grandma died last night, just before Mother's Day. Ironically, the first day Dad and our Uncle have to spend without their mother alive is Mother's Day. That was not lost on me today.

My emotions went through a wide range today. At one point I felt a bit sick to my stomach. Three people in my family dead in one year. This seems crazy. Do I want to be angry with God? No. Do I wonder why this has happened? A little bit. I still maintain that deferring to His authority is obedience and what He requires from me.

Lamentations 3:22-23

New American Standard Bible (NASB)

²² The Lord’s lovingkindnesses ^[a]indeed never cease,
For His compassions never fail.
²³ They are new every morning;
Great is Your faithfulness.

I am still comforted with a peace that passes understanding. I know that my God is in control and He cares deeply for each of His people. He knows each hurt and I do not have to worry about myself or worry about tomorrow.

I realized a while ago that I could count the time since you died in boxes of cookies and donuts and it had to stop.