Last night I was able to dream of you again. I am kind of hopeless in that all I have left is hoping you can be alive in my dreams. I love it when you are still there in my dreams. I was looking at you and you had on this Lia Sophia necklace and earrings set that I have been looking at on ebay. How sad is it that I woke up so happy that you were alive in my dream. I think later on while I was sleeping I knew that you were dead, but I am still glad that I can get those glimpses of you, even if they are all my own imagination now. It's all that I have left.
The more time passes, the greater the distance my memory has to travel to remember how you smelled, laughed, sounded, smiled, and loved.
Even with Grandpa, it all seemed to happen so quickly. He would have been 80 last week, and I can still hear him telling me a story and the way he used to chuckle while he told a joke or funny story. He always made me smile and he had such great hugs. I remember getting a hug from him every time I left his house. He and grandma would chase us through the playground playing tag, something no other grandparent would do.
I feel like lately I can see more clearly than I did before. It has been 7 months since that awful day.
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